standing trial for your sins

brand new just never gets old. it really doesn't. old memories are relived and create new memories and it just keeps going so it's always relevant.

i still feel guilty.
for that night and every night before that.
i've said it a million times i swear, but i really do need to change. i need to think about what i'm doing. long term affects. i need to work on my reputation. not even for other people. but for myself. and a little for other people. i want to become the person i envision myself as. i want to be described in colorful, good terms. i want people to have good, happy, quirky memories of me. i can do this. i can i can i can i can.


liz is coming this weekend! i want it to be a good bonding weekend. maybe a party. maybe not. lots of food. adventures. definitely.

new rules:
-only go out once a week
-when i go out, only three drinks tops. two if it's something other than beer.
-create something new everyday
-blog every other day
-work out at least four times a week

almost swim suit season and i'm going to do it this year. furreal. i want to be able to wear this little number. it's kind of cute and vintage-y. wish me luck.

todays intake:
-baked apple oatmeal
-handful of jelly beans
-garlic caesar chicken crepe
-one peanut butter buckeye
-handful of jelly beans
- turkey sandwich
-banana
-peanut butter chocolate cookie
-handful of jelly beans

workout: hip hop funk class. (hilarious)

i need to stop with the jelly beans. they will be the death of me.
tomorrow is a new day!