apple pie

i don't know why, but i consistently behave in way that denies my extroverted nature. i know i'm an extrovert - not just because personality tests have told me so, but because i can feel it. one of my professors described an extrovert as a person who recharges in the company of others. by interacting and connecting with people, they gain inspiration and motivation to take on new challenges and create new ideas. this is me. yet, i consistently treat myself like an introvert. i tell people i can't hang out, or convince myself that i will accomplish more if i'm alone. and then i don't. i get depressed or procrastinate or scroll mindlessly through pages of internet nothingness. but then there are nights like tonight, were i can't avoid working with others, that make me realize how much that method doesn't work for me. brainstorming with temple smash writers totally breaks down the dam formed in my mental thought river! i literally get giddy during meetings when we're all just talking and what if-ing. then beth and i studied together for our mediation exam - a task i gave myself three full days to work on (didn't do anything more than write a few words on index cards) and blammo! I feel like I know the material well! and now i can't fall asleep because i'm just so jazzed about everything and feeling insanely energetic and enthusiastic. again, i really need to start nurturing my extroverted side and just accepting the fact that i work better with others.

also, i made an apple pie. it was awesome. come hang out with me and maybe i'll make you one. if you play your cards right.